Void

Voids are no short of black-holes. They suck up life out of you. These voids could be outcome of anything, place, memory, person, opportunities you missed. 

It is as if something dark, destructive thing happening to you, that feeling that chokes you, that negativity which comes out of nowhere & surrounds you. It is as if like some mighty anaconda is squeezing & gulping you down. You can actually feel that breaking sound. That breaking sound is your own – you are breaking…bit by bit. You are helpless, hapless and hopeless in void.

In fact there in nothing that you feel in void. Even the feelings, emotions get sucked up in void. There is no way back out of it. You try to dodge it only to fall in another void. 

What is more frustrating is the cost which you paid willingly but it was not worth it. Everything seems unworthy. You have to pay cost for your dreams, your happiness but these elude you despite paying up that cost (in fact more than that). That is double whammy for you. You are no short of pauper since you paid that cost and you did not even get what you deserve.

When for every small thing, you pay such cost, you are pushed inch-by inch towards that void. And there comes a day when you realise you absolutely own nothing. That is void. That sinking feeling…

But still you have to get up and get going only in hope that coming time could be better than this. This “positive”, “get going” too may seem farce. So be it, if that the only thing that may help.

Worst feelings, no feelings, feeling euphoric are all part and parcel of this mystery called life. Life is that mystical thing that lures you. Problem is you are addicted to it and do not want to give up despite these voids. 

That vacuum is not going to get filled. Do not even bother to do it. Just try to survive it, because some days you don’t have to live….some days you just have to survive. And survival of the fittest is the basic law of the nature. Survive, come back strong, you got this!